Backwardation

 

It is finally time to move on.

I asked you so many times. I showed you so many times.

I tried to understand.

 

I cried, I begged, I said

I did, I told you, and it was only you and no one else.

I needed you and nothing else.

 

I asked if you were going to be there in the future, you said yes.

But did not pick up my call and ignored my “I love you” message

On Saturday night, bowling with new friends from work

Drinking with new partners in life,

Maybe my favorite wine, maybe at our favorite place

 

I cried, I begged, I said

I did, I told you, and it was only you and no one else.

I needed you and nothing else.

 

I now understand what you were doing

You were letting the options opened,

Telling me to stick around and deal with your lack of time for me

In name of our past and the time that meant so much to us

I begged you to let me go, to end what I could tell was gone

You asked me to understand and told me to work on things

You needed space, started things from the beginning again

I cried, I begged, I said

I did, I told you, and it was only you and no one else.

I needed you and nothing else.

I needed you and nothing else.

You said yes “me too” and left me hanging in there